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July 23rd, 2009

01:29 pm - confused doesn't know what think think anymore. I get ridiculed for everythiong i do. I amso stressed and unhappy that my eczema is goin nuts. No one to vent or to talk to. My boyfreinds just doesn't understand. I Love him to death but on some levels we are compeate opposits. Which is why i feel alone. Can actually fell myself geting sick becasue of all this. I don't know anyone who still uses this site, but i do know it they won't chew my ass for something i wrote. In fact it my give me incuragement than anything. wow felt good to vent a little Current Mood: confused

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July 16th, 2007

04:44 pm - PLEASE HELP I have been out of the faith for almost 3 years. I wanna come back i went to treatment now i am so scared i dont know how to come back. It has been so long and i litteraly fried me head with drugz n alcohol. I wanna come back but am lost as to how to come back. I dont have ny books or lit. Or dresses nothen. If no one resopnds i understand. Just want you to know i wanna come back i am just stumped. Thatnk you for you time. Current Mood: scared

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December 2nd, 2004

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October 23rd, 2004

03:34 pm - cool huh Popular interests among Amadrella's friends 1. movies (8) 11. biking (4) 2. music (6) 12. pizza (4) 3. friends (6) 13. fire (4) 4. drawing (5) 14. green (3) 5. stars (5) 15. games (3) 6. jehovah's witness (5) 16. family (3) 7. bible (4) 17. dvds (3) 8. writing (4) 18. mountain dew (3) 9. computers (4) 19. reading (3) 10. talking (4) 20. snow (3) Interests gestalt My most interesting friend is black_heart07 who has 13 of these interests, followed by biok5 (11), morningdewdrop (9) and cobaltbluetony (9). Normality Index My friends are 76.48% normal. Analyze me ! Username: Popular interests created by _imran_ Current Mood: cheerful

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October 13th, 2004

12:51 pm - Good times Saterday I went out in service adn after service i went to Enderlin ND to see my freinds Randy, Peggi, ED,Lausche. I got there in the afternoon adn er watch unsinkable molly brown. whenr randy came home we are adn swithced movies to Blast from the past. And on sunday we wen tto bookstudy, then the other meetings.After that we rushed home adn i left with ed adn we went tin to the sami adn went to the grain bin things adn droped soy beans. We went adn pick up peggi adn randy adn drove to the other freild adn filed the sami with more soy beans. We made a couple of trips. We left ed adn we three went to a nother sami adn drove home . Than i drove home adn went to work :P. Monday i got a hypetitus b schot tuesday i got the flu shot :P well not i have to go bye Current Mood: awake

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October 6th, 2004

01:10 am - Sorry Sorry I have been soo distracted latly. UUUMMM Sence my sister got married. Right now I am working @ nusing home full time adn going to college full time.so that is fun.I miss LJ I miss hearing from everyone adn know what is going on I have lost contact with people that mean so much to me. I hope that you can forgive me , give me another change are regain out freindship. I have to leave to go to class. I'll be done with class @ 9:00p.m. Than go to 10:15 pm till 6:30 AM. FUN FUN Current Mood: excited

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March 13th, 2004

08:29 pm - Yed i am here I am sorry for not posting fo a long time. Many things have been happening. Like on the 3rd of this month i moved to sauk center.I am living with a family that i am close to. I will be living with them for awhile.I have a job wich pays more and gives me more hours adn that is cool.I work 6 days a week adn i like what i do. But i thoug i would just let you know i moved adn if you want my new address adn phone e mail me adn i'll send them to you. Life is so good right know eventhogh i got diagnosed with add add... for once in my life i am stress free..........pluse i got my apitite back :) i missed food. Current Mood: happy

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February 7th, 2004

09:30 am - think bout it Okay so that subject has nothen to do with what I actually have to say. But thing are so crazzy I am going to lose my mind.Or what is left over if I don't speak. Haha so I spoke. The wedding plans for my sister are nuts I am going nuts. Tho I am learning how to really ignore my mom adn sister and ZONE out is good all I head is blah blah blah. My brother wedding wasn't this crazzy I have one word ELOPEMENT...Come people planing a wedding is stressful adn nuts. That all I have to say. My trip to florida was fun tho I finaly realized how blond I am even tho I am not a blond. I got lost in the airport in Tampa hehehe. I was on the wrong side of the air port may other airports land there so umm ya . So i thought I lost my lugage. hahahaha anywho.I got gifts for my family. My sister soon to be husband to be took my gift as a suck up gift ya that was nice he said it to my face.In October I had ONE bad day he saw my ugly side and sence then he has been cruel to me oh well life goes on. I didnt get to go to sea world but I did get to do lots of fun things. Oh hey you know that girl casie that was 11 and got kidddnapped and killed and was found two days later.... I was two blocks away when it happened. SCARRY. I was recently diagnoce with AD/HD Attetnion deficet /Hyper Active dissorder.. So that my explain something about me I think I dont know. Okay I had a brain fart so I can not think of what elce I was going to say...OH ya I got internet up in my place again and my computer isn't working. I took the modem out and put it back in but I dont have a driver disk so I have to get a driver disk. BC the computer says I don't have a modem. GGGGGGIIIIIIRRRRRRR.....I have to be @ work in a hour so I am going to go Hopefully I will be writing more often. I dont know maybe. Sad point: My sister gave the our cat away I have had 4 dreams bout him. I miss him poor kitty Current Mood: amused Current Music: Jason Maraz

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January 16th, 2004

11:08 am - update Okay so I went to Sauc Center, The Job fell threw and the apartment was a joke. I would have to share a bathroom with three other people...... I DON'T THINK SO.. GROSS....So for now I am going to stay in Fergus Falls. But i leave for Florida in a week and four dyas i am ecited....... Current Mood: blah

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November 17th, 2003

12:09 am - No internet as of December 1,03 Okay i know in the past i have said some realy dumb things adn i know i said things i shouldn't have including swaring. I am really sorry bout that. But i have made a lot of progress in the truth. But my best freind is moving to Florida adn know i feel compleatly alone. She was my everything i told her everything now i have no one to talk to. I wish her well adn can not waite to see her again in four months. I have changed for the better bc of her. I know go out in service study for meetings. And i dont try to destroy myself in any way any more. So as you can see i changed for the better. But like i said I will not have internet as of December 1,03. So i will not check my e mail or LJ very offten. I wish everyone the best in life adn how that life is treating you wonderful. BYE Current Mood: peaceful

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October 24th, 2003

10:37 pm - I'm Sick Yep i went to bed not feeling the greatest, my throte hurt really bad.... Woke up this morning Oh my. Not cool. i went threw a box of klenexs in in three hours. My glands are so swolen there like little cherry's my thorte will i cant swallow. I took some stuf @ 3:00 pm for colds didnt do anything thing. Took some other cold stuff @ 6:30 pm worked perty good. Ofcouse now that i am paying attention to myself(just got home from work) my nose is a waterfall again.But i am going to go b4 i fall asleep on the computer Current Mood: sick Current Music: nothen but the tones in my head

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October 16th, 2003

10:02 pm - Peggi Peggi told me today that i have beutiful fogy blue eyes. Now that i have changed my eye shadow from brown to purple now they are even more beutiful. ahahah that made me laugh Current Mood: amused Current Music: Moulin Rouge

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October 13th, 2003

01:58 am - Goodbye This is going to be my last LJ. Freindships have been ruined over it. I know my last couple journal have not been very happy. I was told with LJ you are suposed to write what every you want to get thing off your mind. Well I did adn i lost my "freind" over it. All i can say is I am sorry. I really am. I am going to be writing on lj but only for me. Current Mood: thoughtful

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September 28th, 2003

05:07 am - speaker We had the speaker for lunch today. And Peggy came to yaay Current Mood: happy

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September 3rd, 2003

10:09 am - HAHAHAHAHAHAH Okay so while we were camping some reporter came up adn talked to us adn some things of what we said gor printed, i guess pictures got printed to but i haven seen them. But this is what we said. I laughed soooooo fricken hard...(at what they quoted on what i said.) Back at the campground, another group was focusing more on relaxation. "Quiet is a rare commodity these days," said Theo Ross of Aberdeen, who said he was enjoying the time with his wife's family. Part of the fun was trying to keep up with his in-laws' banter. "It kind of settles your mind out here," he said. "What mind?" said his sister-in-law, April Schmall, who sat next to him. Ross pointed to a tent a dozen yards away and said, "That's why they're way over there." It had been a good Labor Day, but, said Audrey Schmall, "We all got to work tomorrow." Jessy I am sooo sorry we didnt call or see you. things got really messed up when we were there. Things are really messed up adn hard right now too but i will survive. The sucky part is i have to ask my dad for help. WOW i ahve to ask an alcoholic for help a lot of good that will do me. But as peggy said i have to try........I had a long talk with my brother in law Theo while we were camping who is a Persiding oversear in his comgergation. I had a nighmare last night it pretty much had to deal with the rebound girl thing.... SUCKY but i cryed in my dream adn woke up adn i was crying adn couldnt sleep. So i found myself being creative today, i made three braclets adn a necklese. so ummm ya Current Mood: amused

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August 28th, 2003

11:46 am - OUCH okay so usualy my cell phone bill is usualy 40 bucks which i can deal with. I talked to head trip on my cell. I got my phone bill adn spit out my water ready $218.49 bucks yep that really sucks but oh well i am going to have to pay but ouch.......... *SIGH* Current Mood: surprised

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August 26th, 2003

12:04 pm - odd Okay so tonight i went to the bookstudy i am assinged to. I felt so odd. I missed two meeting there bc i went elce ware. But i had odd eyes on me EVERYWERE!!!! I felt like the pple felt they had to talk to bc the conductor may have said something to them.. I really hate that feeling.... But i find i cant help but think that way. Okay me and Becca(a girl form work) have decided that i really adm a fun person but my thinking is way messed up. When i think its depressing but if i dont think i am just like lLALALALALALALALALALAL I DONT CARE LALALALALALA anyways. Now i have this odd feeling i cant write what i want to so grrrrr. ANywho./ Current Mood: confused Current Music: Avril Lavine

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August 23rd, 2003

03:04 am - Sorry I am sorry bout what I wrote yesterday bout not writing. I wasnt thinking. Things are going a little better at home but not much :S I when i was in Aberdeen I met some people who were helping with unasinged territory. I went out with them after the meeting adn with some people for Aberdeen. I got addresses. I was lokingly makeing plans to go to West Verginaia in 8 months I just dont know. But all I wanted to say was sorry for yesterdays post. Current Mood: awake Current Music: Moulin Rouge

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August 22nd, 2003

01:35 pm - Please dont be offened I have decided that I wont be using Live journal much. I left wensday for refugy to my sister in Aberdeen adn. I have a lot to deal with adn i am not sure i am ready for it. Last night was a long night adn long with wensday night, tonight i dontknow how it will go. I will read other pple LJ but i wont be posting much. Please understand this has NOTHING to do with you pple. It's me all me. I am getting so much pressure form ever were i cant handel it. Oh I got private reprof. The elders figured it wouldnt help meany in the congergation if it was public,I am being taken of the minestry school, which sadly to say didn thurt me that much bc i have given 1 may be 2 talkes in 3 years...... Love ME Current Mood: uncomfortable

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August 17th, 2003

09:17 pm - Don't worrie yes as i said dont worrie bout me. Today i got into a big fight with my siter adn my mom. It was two against one NOT fair. They got on my case because off the people i hang out with, yet i agree with them but do not know how to handel it. My sister adn i agrued all the way home from the meeting. I didnt go with her wo Moorhead like i always do every other sunday. But this sunday i didnt, She left upset i cryed so hard arrrgg i was supose to go out to eat with some frieds adn i sat home adn cryed. Head_Trip do not worrie bout me, but when my sister left i was soooo upset that i took adn eraser to myself adn have a two inches of OUCHIE on my wrist. it didnt hurt but my freind was worried bout me that i dint come out to eat so she came adn found me. I had passed out :S so i woke up told her what happened adn ummm ya. I have tomarow off so tomarow will be a borring day. I hope Corey my freind form work is working. Right now i ma very influenced by people. That is all i have to say about that. Today i had my bags packed i was going to charge a crap load of food form work adn gas and see were my car took me.. I think on how tonight is going to should have Current Mood: crazy

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